Life has been pain.
Pain held inside, for no one to see.
Pain from sources hidden from their eyes.
All of these caused by none other than me.
Self-imprisoned behind chains of insecurity and uncertainty
Building a bigger wall with every misopportunity
Fear - of what? Of failure, of rejection, or something else?
Fear of disappointment, of dreams that will never come true
A heart, once filled with life, so giving in love, pure and free
Now is empty, cold, but still wanting to live, wanting to be set free
Watching every step, ever so carefully
Making sure they see, who I want them to see
This heart is desolate, having no faith anymore
The door is now locked, bolted with the strongest chains of pain
A mind so confused as what this pain is all for
Character young man - Be bold, be cold
But what is this? This burst of light in this darkness?
What is this gush of fresh, sweet air that has filled my lungs?
What is this, that is breaking the chains?
Can it be, I can really be free?
She walked in, ever so unexpectantly
Our lives briefly touching, having no idea the affect of her spirit on mine
She will move on, unaffected by me
Never knowing how she may have changed me forever.
A lifeless heart, revived, saved from certain death
Another chance, to really live, to really breathe
To really love, to really soar, to really be free
Can this be true and not just a dream?
But wait, what about the pain? How much more can this heart endure?
How much longer can it beat alone?
It's ok, be strong Rick, everything will be fine
You can do it, even on your own - you know.
Block out the pain from your mistakes, your mis-opportunities,your insecurities
Ignore the fact that you have almost had real love - almost
That you are destined for solitarity, to walk this path alone
But one thing is certain, you will be strong - that's more important than love, right?
On the verge, of exploding with life
Or drowning in an ocean of darkness forever.
On the verge of soaring like an eagle
Or giving up the heart completely
One glimmer of hope
This darkness has been broken
A bright light is shining
I am closer than I have ever been